Do I hate running? No. Well, yes. But only when it gets out of hand...when I'm running to catch up, but never seem to be able to. Right now, I'm feeling like I'm running to nowhere. Plus, I'm late. I hate studying. No, I don't hate studying that much. I hate that I have to study for things that I believe to be useless. Like a philosophy about nursing. Like research in nursing. I hate research. I hate models. For god's sake! I work in a surgical unit. I run. But it'll eventually get to a result. I hate models because they're just like bullshit talks that means nothing, because it's actually not applicable on a surgical unit! Not in an ICU unit! Not in the OR, not in the ER, nowhere that need you to run. It's for community service. Fine, but at the moment, it's really not the time.
It's the time for nothing. There's this dinner over my house this evening: a kind of gathering with friends. I proposed them to come here instead of going to eat outside. I hate eating out. Because, I'm always eating out! But, it's really not the moment.
I need to be alone, I want to be alone. I want to stay in bed, cuddled with my three blankets. I don't need anyone at the moment!
But fine, I'll try to get my bad mood out on the food today and actually cook, 'cuz it's been so long since I last bake. And they better not burn tonight.
Among all this, do you know what bothers me the most? It's to be doing the same stupid thing in a certain period of time. For instance, when I had to work full time and only work. Now that I do both, I can't catch up, because it's more than 40 hours per week. It's... it became part of me.
There's no balance. I need balance. I can't only be focusing on one thing in my life, I need to juggle, but only when it's well balanced. And I'm already late. Which makes me even more late. That's why I can't catch up. But I can't give up either. But I need rest. But it'll be over soon. Just got to hang on, right?
The bubble can't burst just yet.
Oh, I'm addicted to Grey's anatomy since...few days ago. Caught this while watching an episode,
"The thing about addiction, it's that it never ends well because eventually, whatever that as getting us high stops feeling good and starts to hurt. They say that you don't kick the bad habit until you hit the rock. But how do you know when you would get there? Because no matter how badly the thing is hurting us, sometimes, letting go hurts even worse." Meredith Grey.
I probably skipped on a few works or just go them wrong.
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Oh you know what? It wasn't that bad. The cooking was messing so was the cleaning ,such a chore, but everyone helped. I have cheese on my bedroom floor and probably garlic too. And then...we talked about serious stuff like fiance and marriage They immediately pointed out that I'd be the first and Jade'd be the second. Woah. If it's based on who got a bf first...ah then, maybe in 10 years...Who knows, it might be the opposite. Anyways, after Jade, they're no idea who will be next among them. -lol-
It's the time for nothing. There's this dinner over my house this evening: a kind of gathering with friends. I proposed them to come here instead of going to eat outside. I hate eating out. Because, I'm always eating out! But, it's really not the moment.
I need to be alone, I want to be alone. I want to stay in bed, cuddled with my three blankets. I don't need anyone at the moment!
But fine, I'll try to get my bad mood out on the food today and actually cook, 'cuz it's been so long since I last bake. And they better not burn tonight.
Among all this, do you know what bothers me the most? It's to be doing the same stupid thing in a certain period of time. For instance, when I had to work full time and only work. Now that I do both, I can't catch up, because it's more than 40 hours per week. It's... it became part of me.
There's no balance. I need balance. I can't only be focusing on one thing in my life, I need to juggle, but only when it's well balanced. And I'm already late. Which makes me even more late. That's why I can't catch up. But I can't give up either. But I need rest. But it'll be over soon. Just got to hang on, right?
The bubble can't burst just yet.
Oh, I'm addicted to Grey's anatomy since...few days ago. Caught this while watching an episode,
"The thing about addiction, it's that it never ends well because eventually, whatever that as getting us high stops feeling good and starts to hurt. They say that you don't kick the bad habit until you hit the rock. But how do you know when you would get there? Because no matter how badly the thing is hurting us, sometimes, letting go hurts even worse." Meredith Grey.
I probably skipped on a few works or just go them wrong.
Edit//
Oh you know what? It wasn't that bad. The cooking was messing so was the cleaning ,such a chore, but everyone helped. I have cheese on my bedroom floor and probably garlic too. And then...we talked about serious stuff like fiance and marriage They immediately pointed out that I'd be the first and Jade'd be the second. Woah. If it's based on who got a bf first...ah then, maybe in 10 years...Who knows, it might be the opposite. Anyways, after Jade, they're no idea who will be next among them. -lol-
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