The Fear of Losing

People have emotions.
People feel different kind of emotions. Some people tend to be more on the optimistic side and some people are just the opposite of that.
I'm scared. It's fear.
There's this fear of losing the people that are important to me 'cuz well, seems like that's what being going on these days. Take for instance my fish: I lost the other one. It was easy to replace it but whenever he refuses to eat, I'll keep on wondering why and be worried. And I know it's just a fish, but he's my fish. All right, that person isn't just her or him, because I need them. Don't people develop a certain kind of bond with each other after being together for a while? The point is, they're different because they have a special meaning to me.

So, whenever the threat is near, I freak out. When people are about to lose what they have left, they would just get even more insecure and...and afraid.

Therefore, I can't face it.
Instead, I pretend. I pretend that I'm fine. (Grey's anatomy people seem to like to pretend too. Is this a specific characteristic of meds people?) Beside pretending, I don't know what else I can possibly do, because everyone has problems and you still have to get up and go to work, right? So that's I'm doing. Though, I wish consequences would stop hitting me week after week.

However, I have this stupid headache that doesn't seem to be going away since few days, doesn't matter if I'm at school, work or home. Geez, in a pretty day like this, I'm stuck in my bedroom-cave.

Now got to go to care for lives. Care. Not save.