Trials and Tribulations

I really like my weekend team. My training nurse was all cranky yesterday (unusually mood), so the only male nurse on my weekend said, "she's either on PMS or need to get laid."

Anyways, we're having so much fun fooling and laughing our head off. Well, it's them laughing at my head. I officially got labeled the baby and got called immature. The nurse that trained me went "OMG" when she saw me with the same breakfast sandwich 1h later only half-way done, then said, "No wonder you're so bony." Ha...really? So I lifted my top uniform up to show my hip, buwhahaha...she went O_O I would get really cuddly when I work with her, leaning over and using her as a teddy bear (she really looks like one, very Bailey from Grey's anatomy figure-like). She asked if I act like this with my parents...too bad, so sad....but no. Well, beside at work, really...I rarely show that fool side of me. Probably because some friends put me through trial and complained that I went from mature to immature over time. When I got nothing else to do, I'd follow her around, so much that another nurse said, " Go! Go with your mommy!" "Why? You don't like me?" =D

Today, another friend said, "you don't know how to socialize. Why don't want just meet new people and fool around. Have fun!" Oh greatness, I had to go through long explications...I get scared by guys who show interests at the very first moment we meet without knowing me at all. Then, they would just stick around while I play hide-but-don't-seek the best I could. They'd even go as far as saying, "You never call." or asking me time over time if I'm free for a coffee even if I had refused. There was a time when I'd get calls from a guy in real life I've never met regularly. Once, I told him I was busy...that I can't talk, he went " yeah I know you're at boy bf's eh!" Then, call me back an hour late. Dude, that's annoying!

Some girls enjoy leading on even if they know perfectly they're not interested, just for the purpose of having some control, and even if I can be guilty of that too without exaggerating, I don't want to be responsible of their deception. So, I'd rather shoo them off at the very early moment! Nevertheless, guys friends are always great to have. And men should keep in mind that it's not because we accepted your lift propose that we're into you. We just want to skip on the public transport. =)

Have you ever wonder what you have done in your life to deserve what you currently have either it's positive or negative?

"Did you know that for pretty much the entire history of the human species, the average life span was less than thirty years? You could count on ten years or so of real adulthood, right? There was no planning for retirement, There was no planning for a career. There was no planning. No time for plannning. No time for a future. But then the life spans started getting longer, and people started having more and more future. And now life has become the future. Every moment of your life is lived for the future--you go to high school so you can go to college so you can get a good job so you can get a nice house so you can afford to send your kids to college so they can get a good job so they can get a nice house so they can afford to send their kids to college."

There's a comment that I keep hearing...that I don't understand why people like to say this so much to anyone, "You deserve better." It's as if that's the only thing they can find to say. Ain't making things better at all. Think harder...I'd rather keep silence than saying such thing.

On the other hand, I think there is always a person I'd never ever understand. Completely unpredictable to the point that I'd feel overwhelmed to witness the many different faces that person can put on. In the end, I just don't know who this person is thinking of, why this person would behave that way, who this person really cares for, and what does this person wants. No matter how close, no matter how long it has been, I think...I'll never get to know.

[ Kung Fu Panda...best thing happening to me right now. So sad when old turtle master died...sniffle When Turtle asked his disciple to promise him and smile the way old people do...aww]

My fish in his favorite spot :
staring at the flower wall in his bed.
(that I just remember, I forgot to feed him)