2010

What did you do for New Year?

At last, I didn't stay home by myself, which is already an improvement.
Mom left for Florida three days ago and the house is abnormally quiet.
My fish didn't make it to 2010.

Yesterday, few hours before I left for Jade's apartment, I found my 1 year and a half (probably more) old Betta fish dead in the tank. He was still grasping for air in the morning...He had been refusing to eat for over a month, hence I was quite surprised on how he managed to still be alive for so long. He didn't swim on the side or have any other symptom I can pinpoint to relate to any illness...But I managed to heal my previous lateral swimming Betta fish with green peas and tried for this one too. It takes about an hour to empty the peas and make smaller pieces to feed him with a toothpick. Most pieces would sink to the bottom. At first, he wouldn't recognized it's food, but once he bites on, he eats as a famish buddy. That didn't last long because the following day, he was back to his usual ill self.

I had to send a patient away on Christmas Eve...I made the initiation. He died after I discussed with the family and doctors that it was time to let him go and stop all the unnecessary treatments. Therefore, a bag containing soothing drugs were prepared to send him off...that was my last gift I gave after spending the day trying to keep him alive.

It enraged me when there's nothing I can do. But why did both 'decide' to leave like this? Nevertheless, by not making it to 2010, my fish is helping me to turn the page.

Aside for these sad moments, we had a dinner at Jade's, which was extremely slow, must I acknowledge. However, it is better than falling asleep before the count down.

Oh, another detail, did I tell you I have a record of at least 1 friend per week who cries on the phone?

10.01.01 : Today, two friends called in tears after talking with their parents. One is overwhelmed that her parents had forgiven her and let her go back home and the other one is so hurt after being insulted by her mother. Why moms have to say terrible words to their daughters when they are mad? Don't they know that some insults cannot be taken back once said? And what the heck...

I shall go rest.

Happy New Beginning...may yours be memorable.