How can you move on when you're standing still?

So what happens when what you say and do don't match?
Nothing.
Because, (I know this seems like big time irony) but I still strongly mean and believe in what I said, even if the way the situations unfolded is different.

And do I care? No.
Okay fine, maybe I do.
But sometimes, it doesn't matter until someone else does too.

Also, there is a possibility that answers only appear much later; answers that are already known of, because choices were already made. It's only a matter of sticking to them instead of finding excuses to bypass them.

In the meantime, finding inner peace is the best alternative to reduce my heart beat. At rest, it goes from 60 t0 100 beats/min. When it's near 100/min, I can feel the uncomfortable feeling building up in my chest and it's very unhealthy for a young person to have such a fast heart beat. I think my prolonged indigestion issue also comes from this. I used to spend a year doing yoga, but stopped for the past two years. It'd seriously benefit me to start again. Oddly enough, I feel much happier when I can't feel my heart wanting to explode out of my chest.

Tell me what happened, the more it goes, the more I hate noises, shopping, restaurants, hanging out, etc. Witnessing my friends' shopping sprees scare the shit of me. Now, it has become so hard to conceive how many clothes they can buy, knowing their wardrobe is fuller than mine! I just love being home and alone. I miss mom, who's going to be back tomorrow. Ok, I think I won't miss her as much once she has landed.