Is Down The Hole

with bronchitis. At the very beginning of the week, I thought I contracted another cold, but I went down with fever yesterday, with greenish gelatin like yurkie thing coming out of my throat. I cough like a dog barks. Urgh, no way I'm spending 3 hours waiting for asthma pumps (i'm not a regular asthmatic) and antibiotic (I hate these)...so...I'm just going to get one of my nurse friend to get a pump...LOL Stress is kicking in and destroying my immune system. No flu vaccine for me this year, it's a no-no.

This whole financial and work issues are just unbearable. At first, this upcoming weekend, I was supposed to work at HDM instead of my friend who wanted to have off. Our boss said it was fine. Eventually, someone else called and say that I can't due the fact that I'm on complete leave for studies (but at that time, my boss said I can work when I want nonetheless). So fine. Then on my private agency website, they suddenly posted that they needed a nurse for the weekend. I called in and they confirm my spot. Yay. I'm almost as sick as I was three years ago when I was also down with flu in November, but it made me happy to work. Today, on a very sunny day, I didn't go to class. Since I started my semester, it has been raining every single Thursdays. I know because it's technically the only class I attend during the week. I go to school every other day for awful team meetings and projects. Today, my agency called to tell me an intern nurse took the spot so I don't have to work. Can they do that after they had confirm my schedule?

Both systems of HDM and HSCM piss me off. The money CHUM was supposed to grant me is not coming in this year, because they haven't sign the agreement with the syndicate. But we signed a contract! I hate to say this, but I'd rather pay back what I owe and jump to the ICU of MUHC. I'm very aware that their full time is at least 48h/week and 12h a day. But I don't want to stay where I'm not needed and toyed around. When they needed me, they drained my energy out. When they are overloaded, I'm tossed on the side. I mean, when you're tagged to fill empty holes, you're stuck with it.

I'm aware I'm to blame because I didn't plan well enough ahead that something like this can happen : no income. But it's due to the fact that my plans Bs have always always worked out up until now. Of course, I can't feel more like a 3rd year University student as it is, but it wasn't supposed to be like this. The whole family financial issues are so stressful, I want to help. Dad said to focus on my studies (it's barely the only aspect I have control over now), but it isn't how things work. Anyhow, I'm learning an awesome lesson and got to stuck it up and plan for a change. I wish for 2010 to end so soon. Every new year, I wish for a better year, but why does it always seem to be just worse. I can't help it but to be pessimistic.

p.s. Try this just for fun

Have you ever wanted to go to Japan? Have you figured how to do so?

Now...

1. Go on Google Maps
2. Enter Japan as departure
3. Enter USA as arrival
4. Read number 27
5. Laugh or do whatever you want. But who figured that out? Google humor