Middle-aged

Remember this older friend I mentioned in a previous post? She's now part of my daily life. MSN is going bonkers on me. Even if when I'm online, my friends say I'm off. Anyways, so messages are not sent. T doesn't have MSN and didn't have me in her tops friends so we couldn't sms each other. I ended up on Gtalk, pretty awesome thing, the messages are sent directly to my phone (now, I get what that apps was for.) About two weekends ago, she invited me over for dinner, stating that she has her husband's friend who's coming over too, but can't tell him I'd be there because he stresses upon any female's presence. Throughout the dinner, it was hardcore English conversations. I thought it would be difficult to adapt, since I'm an intruder among them but it was fine. Apparently, her husband has a really good laugh and time. At midnight, she suddenly asked if I have a boyfriend because he would be worried by now. I made such an awkward face.

T has been sharing many of her friends' relationships stories. It's all about failed marriages and relationships. Her friends (males and females) are depressed that they have to be single at this age and without a child. She says if she has to choose, she'd rather choose children, because at least they stay beside you. I suppose it's hard to go through when you've given your youth to your man, then once you reach middle age, your life falls apart. Then, T goes about how she can introduce her friends to me. You know how Asian people are difficult for others to guess age. I supposed she's in her early thirties or mid, until I asked her. That's when I learned she's almost double my age. T says to her husband "she's a baby (me), we can be her parents!" Age wise, I'm right in between her youngest kid and her. That's also when she goes all protective, saying I can join their dinners parties, but no way would she let her male friends near me.

Seriously, even if I say from time to time that I don't to be alone, but I'm pretty fine the way it is. So I could careless. I feel so helpless when people date for a long time, decide to marry and divorce a year later. I mean, what's the point? Couldn't you realize earlier that the relationship would not work out? All her stories freak me out. They're such a harsh reality check. Who wants to get married then divorce at 40 years old? At least, I don't want that. The worst for women is to be childless at 40. No matter how unrealistic it may be, I still want a marriage that would last a lifetime. We deserve to strive for the best and have the best of what the world has to offer.