What About You?

There are times my reality is being pushed away as far as possible until life deadlines force me to face it. I call it reality because it was already a known issue, hence far from being a surprise. And it was not purposely put on hold, only no one made a decision or that temporary decision made was never appropriate to begin with.

If I go on, I think I can very well go insane. (Try to imagine me pulling on my hair and yelling) There are always playback of actual facts, they don't stop coming, from the world of genuine reality hunting my own everyday life reality, which are two distinct things. They remind me of what I'm already aware of and they keep confirming what I've doubt of, but may have being told differently at one point. These pictures are of how it should be, the way rules and regulations have designed it to be, but also how all the nonfactual ideals we are supposed to conform to.

There is this much damage done. Everyone would rather keep it on a thin line, instead of putting it clear and cut, because we were too cowards and would rather take the temporary easy way out. Although, it took me too long, it'll be done. Life's a bitch, people leave behind tasks they don't want to dirty their hands with. The truth is, someone has to back off for the other one to live a better life, no? Similar to when a friend leaves you to pursue his dream. Just because it hurts the pride of being so foolish. Because in the end, when I look back, all I can ask myself is...what about me?

But before turning my back, at least let me say : Xin Lỗi