(Why don't they have an icon called 'weird'? Argh.)
All right, so training in psy is over. God, bless you. I have few more classes to attend and it would be over until the end of the semester! Ah no, I have a stupid project to work on too. Bleh. But okay, I have Thursdays off in October, no training.
Uh, I'll take one of my day off to go eat lunch with my aunt. A must. Few days ago, I was speaking on the phone with my uncle because of some internet stuff and instinctively (or defensively) I felt so annoyed. Maybe...seeing mom hurts like this...I just can't.
Today, I wanted to cut off the other students' tongues. Geez, they talk way too much. It was already past 4pm and I had to meet up a friend who was getting off of work at 5pm, but they kept on asking questions!!!! Already stressing out for some sort of exam called ECOS for nursing. Don't they get it?! You'll have your 2% as long as you attend that day and participate. That's it! Gah, I wanted to shout out, "Sorry teacher, but I'm leaving now, byebye."
What's with my mood? It has been going well for the past three weeks. Really, it wasn't like this for the whole summer. Never ever was I feeling happy for 2 consecutive weeks. I was more moody this week though and quite scared that 'it' will come back. Well okay, not moody. Just few symptoms are there again, like feeling abnormally bored even with stuff to do, needing friends around, being apathetic, sometimes I know what I'm doing, sometimes not...Bleh.
Oh, and I've been taking naps after classes/training for at least two hours... It's not like I have to stand up all day or something but I do get really tired.
Okay, something is wrong here.
Again.
Damn.
27.9.07
18.9.07
What Gender is a Computer?
The group of girls concluded that computers should be referred to in the masculine gender because:
1- In order to get their attention, you have to turn them on.
2- They have a lot of data but are still clueless.
3- They are supposed to help you solve your problems, but half the time they ARE the problem.
4- As soon as you commit to one, you realize that, if you had waited a little longer, you could have had a better model.
The boys, on the other hand, decided that computers should definitely be referred to in the feminine gender because:
1- No one but their creator understands their internal logic.
2- The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else.
3- Even your smallest mistakes are stored in long-term memory for later retrieval.
4- As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it.
1- In order to get their attention, you have to turn them on.
2- They have a lot of data but are still clueless.
3- They are supposed to help you solve your problems, but half the time they ARE the problem.
4- As soon as you commit to one, you realize that, if you had waited a little longer, you could have had a better model.
The boys, on the other hand, decided that computers should definitely be referred to in the feminine gender because:
1- No one but their creator understands their internal logic.
2- The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else.
3- Even your smallest mistakes are stored in long-term memory for later retrieval.
4- As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it.
16.9.07
Smile Again
"What do storm and love have in common?"
"You never know when they will hit. And if you don't seize the opportunity, you never know when it will come again. And you may be sorry afterwards."
"What if, I just can't love?"
As a result of an impulse, I called my aunt on Friday during my 3 hours of break. She wasn't there, but called back later, thinking I wanted to come over. Well, it was only to talk. It feels too weird to lose contact with someone you've been so close since very young. However, it was already too late when she called back, I was almost late for class.
I've spent about three days this week at the library and at starbucks to study... just because I can't concentrate at home and won't be efficient enough. Erh, what to do...nowhere else to go. Problem is, today came, after studying for about five hours, I wanted so much to go home and be alone. The friend I'm used to study with had to leave for work, so again, I called out someone I lost contact with for the past six years, but met out of nowhere again, and that person agreed to stay at the library. Lol, because I've gained a lot of courage, I do many things out of impulsion. Regarding this, I don't regret my action. Only, it made me realize... a bit sad, but that's just how it is.
Maybe because I'm relying too much on school, that I'm scared if the was to crumple, I'll lose my last cushion. Therefore, although the teacher and the nurse said that my training is so far so good... I don't really want to trust their words entirely, because I've met hypocrite teachers before. It would just hurt too much thinking the training is going well but end up with a low ( ~7...) (friends were mad for me) mark. Worse, it happened twice.
Hum, good work and good luck to me for the psychiatry training. Six days to go. Damn. And I have about three hours of 'travaux de stage' to do before sleeping and it's already ten o'clock.
Ah, and it's just so weird how I felt quite content yesterday, but came back home and while listening to a song, I shed tears again. Same thing for today, I was really hyper this morning, but then...And why did I dream about drowning myself after jumping in the water. What the hell?!!? Worse is that I can remember. Oh, but then, I also dreamed that I finally got a dog. LOL! Such thing won't happen.
"You never know when they will hit. And if you don't seize the opportunity, you never know when it will come again. And you may be sorry afterwards."
"What if, I just can't love?"
As a result of an impulse, I called my aunt on Friday during my 3 hours of break. She wasn't there, but called back later, thinking I wanted to come over. Well, it was only to talk. It feels too weird to lose contact with someone you've been so close since very young. However, it was already too late when she called back, I was almost late for class.
I've spent about three days this week at the library and at starbucks to study... just because I can't concentrate at home and won't be efficient enough. Erh, what to do...nowhere else to go. Problem is, today came, after studying for about five hours, I wanted so much to go home and be alone. The friend I'm used to study with had to leave for work, so again, I called out someone I lost contact with for the past six years, but met out of nowhere again, and that person agreed to stay at the library. Lol, because I've gained a lot of courage, I do many things out of impulsion. Regarding this, I don't regret my action. Only, it made me realize... a bit sad, but that's just how it is.
Maybe because I'm relying too much on school, that I'm scared if the was to crumple, I'll lose my last cushion. Therefore, although the teacher and the nurse said that my training is so far so good... I don't really want to trust their words entirely, because I've met hypocrite teachers before. It would just hurt too much thinking the training is going well but end up with a low ( ~7...) (friends were mad for me) mark. Worse, it happened twice.
Hum, good work and good luck to me for the psychiatry training. Six days to go. Damn. And I have about three hours of 'travaux de stage' to do before sleeping and it's already ten o'clock.
Ah, and it's just so weird how I felt quite content yesterday, but came back home and while listening to a song, I shed tears again. Same thing for today, I was really hyper this morning, but then...And why did I dream about drowning myself after jumping in the water. What the hell?!!? Worse is that I can remember. Oh, but then, I also dreamed that I finally got a dog. LOL! Such thing won't happen.
12.9.07
English is a Phunny Language
Let's face it: English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant or ham in hamburger, neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins were not invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies, while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.
We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square, and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig. And why is it that writers write, but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce, and hammers don't ham?
If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So, one moose, 2 meese? One index, two indices? Is cheese the plural of choose?
If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?
How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? How can the weather be hot as hell one day and cold as hell another?
When a house burns up, it burns down. You fill in a form by filling it out and an alarm clock goes off by going on. When the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I end it?
Now I know why I flunked my English. It's not my fault; the silly language doesn't quite know whether it's coming or going.
We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square, and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig. And why is it that writers write, but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce, and hammers don't ham?
If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So, one moose, 2 meese? One index, two indices? Is cheese the plural of choose?
If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?
How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? How can the weather be hot as hell one day and cold as hell another?
When a house burns up, it burns down. You fill in a form by filling it out and an alarm clock goes off by going on. When the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I end it?
Now I know why I flunked my English. It's not my fault; the silly language doesn't quite know whether it's coming or going.
6.9.07
Tears
"Girls are like ovens, they take time to warm up. But guys are like microwaves, you just have to push a button to heat them up."
That was a quote, totally unrelated to the subject. Something I find very true and funny.
Tonight, within ten minutes, I cried twice. A friend asked, "What's wrong? Are you okay?"
I guess, I am. I don't know why I cried and no, I wasn't watching a sad movie. Maybe due to some musics? Well, I'm fine, since I don't know what's really wrong.
I just... continuously feel bored. There are so many paperworks to do for my training that I must hand in this Monday, notes to write for my classes, homeworks to do for next day... yet, I'd still feel bored. I'd feel bored while watching a movie.
Might update this entry one day...if I find the answer.
// Edit: no, I haven't found the answer, not like I really care now.
A friend wrote me this which I find sooo funny : "Le sexe masculin est ce qu'il y a de plus léger, une simple pensée le soulève."
That was a quote, totally unrelated to the subject. Something I find very true and funny.
Tonight, within ten minutes, I cried twice. A friend asked, "What's wrong? Are you okay?"
I guess, I am. I don't know why I cried and no, I wasn't watching a sad movie. Maybe due to some musics? Well, I'm fine, since I don't know what's really wrong.
I just... continuously feel bored. There are so many paperworks to do for my training that I must hand in this Monday, notes to write for my classes, homeworks to do for next day... yet, I'd still feel bored. I'd feel bored while watching a movie.
Might update this entry one day...if I find the answer.
// Edit: no, I haven't found the answer, not like I really care now.
A friend wrote me this which I find sooo funny : "Le sexe masculin est ce qu'il y a de plus léger, une simple pensée le soulève."
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