Jobs Opportunities

Two weeks ago, I sent an email to a nurses agency. Few hours later, they asked if I could meet them in two days for an interview. I was so thrilled, as I didn't expect this to be so fast. I only wanted to set up another job for the upcoming summer. Then, they told me they will be taking a picture on the interview day as I'd have to bring a check for direct deposit, etc. Seriously? Already accepted without an interview yet?

Well, I wasn't wrong in believing so, because the interview was mainly about what kind of job I would like to do and where. They seemed to be a bit hesitant to start my salary at 35$/h, but said it'd be only fair for the other girl who has a similar experience as me (without an undergraduate degree on progress). Well, it's not as if I'd argue on that as I think it's bad enough for those who do not have a job...The good side is, I get to drop the scrubs and wear my overdressed clothes for the already too-old-looking Yen. Yep.

A girl who did her DEC with us went to McGill to further her studies too but we learned today that she finally quit. I thought she moved to part-time, but I guess...she gave up.

I know that if I was to tell you, I don't really know what I'm doing at the moment, many friends would want to chop my head off. It's just...people have plans. I had plans. But plans get changed; other stuff get in the ways of the plans so you have to adjust. Well, right now I don't quite know how I'm supposed to adapt...Should I just take my time or should I push it through? Obviously, I won't be giving up everything at once, but a decision needs to be done and I keep on pondering...thinking : it's done, that's it, but then find myself wondering the next day...because hey, I'm scared.

I don't want to make the wrong choice and end up having to readjust myself even more later on. It happens to people who are not very used to get a 'refusal' or a 'failing' experience. (Not a straight A's student here so I do know what failing feels like...still there's a limit to everything.)

Now, why did I say I don't know what I'm doing? I haven't been doing much lately beside working and staying home to study...
But...I don't know why I'm doing all this for.
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do with what I'll get out of these.
It feels useless.

Oh and good news! My license is *apparently* now accepted within the whole Canada! It's only for recent licensee though (within the last 2 years?)

(ATM, my head is like spining and all this blabbering seems so familar. Did I write this before in another entry? o.O Baaahhh...my pillow is calling for me, so I'd check that out another time. Zzz)